Thursday, September 27, 2012

Wake Me Up

Sheep are so cute!
I need to wake up.

I’ve been walking around in a haze, lost and feeling confused.

At last minute, I decided to change what this blog was going to be about because I wanted to make sure and include this cute little article that helped get me going again.

It was just the something I was looking for to light a fire under my butt.

You see, I’ve had a difficult time with life outside of writing lately. The whole month of September has been pretty rough on me. Or rather, I’ve seemingly caused a series of events that has added stress and upped the difficulty level in my life throughout the past month. Seriously, the lyrics for Green Day’s song “Wake Me Up When September Ends” have been going through my head.

I just want this month to be over and a page in history.

I’m burning out and feel that if I keep going, I’m going to break. This is not a matter of having writer’s block. I have lost my drive and feel like I need to do something quick to get it back. There’s no way I’ll ever accomplish NaNoWriMo if I keep going like this! (Speaking of which, I am really excited about NaNo and will start putting together my plan of attack in October! Have some veteran tips for that? Drop me a note.)

Whatever the case may be, I’m determined that next month is going to be better. I’m learning that things may get hard, but it’s what you do when things are difficult that determines you who you are.

And I’m not the girl who just spent an hour staring at a blank document because she forgot how to carve words out of air. No, I’m the girl whose fingers, right in this instant, are flying over the keyboard, attempting the construction of coherent syntax.

That’s right, I’m a writer. Just saying that helps to empower me. If you don’t mind, I’m going to say it again. In fact, I invite you to join me this time:

I am a writer.

How do you keep things from interrupting your writing, when life starts to feel like a series of failures and you’re at your wits end? How do you keep your self-esteem from going down the toilet?


  1. While WAKE ME UP BEFORE SEPTEMBER ENDS is a groovy tune, I think you need something with a bit more pep. May I suggest the following?

    WAKE UP by Lost Prophets

    As for the stagnancy, you can't "force" yourself to churn it out. It either happens or it doesn't. I drowned myself through two months of WriMo's thinking they would help me, and they did more harm than good. That isn't to say they don't work or they aren't helpful, but they aren't for me...

    Keep on keeping on, though, Fang-Daddy! I expect to be reading a book from your within the next couple years. THAT'S incentive! You can't let me and ole' Socrates down, can ya? :-)

    1. Never heard WAKE UP before and I must say, it's pretty awesome! In fact, the lyrics pretty much sum up how I feel right now!

      Thanks AM :)

      Usually, if I just go through the act of writing, something will come of it. But lately its the stuff of life outside of writing that's got me down. Everything feels like a great big waiting game.

  2. I agree with A.M., if life gets in the way of your writing and you feel your self-esteem is lown, maybe the craziness of NaNoWriMo is not for you. Maybe you could join us at A Round of Words in 80 Days (#ROW80): it starts on Oct 1st and it's the "writing challenge whick knows you have a life". Just a thought... But if you decide to go for NaNoWriMo, good luck!

    1. Actually, I get really hyped by the WriMo challenges; I’m the type of person who gets hyper-focused on a task... but the problem is I do that with EVERYTHING in my life – non-writer activities too. If I have time to write, I’m all in.

      But sometimes, something comes along that totally sucks me in (like my recent decision to change jobs, packing up my life, saying my goodbyes, and then deciding the move wasn’t for me after all and having to undo everything). I thought I’d gotten better at avoiding that type of thing, but maybe all I was doing was wearing down a front and now the wall has crumbled.

      Sorry, I’m rambling a bit, but basically I want to say that I’m at ground zero again and starting to build again.

      Thanks EM for your support! I appreciate your words more than you could know :)


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